May 2 - Daniele Cordasco
It's 4:51 a.m. Thursday, April 4th(yesterday) was something I call "leveling up"... when the Lord stays with me and the whole day is all wrong and it makes no sense. You get to the end of the day and reflect... and realize God is there all along and you don't realize sometimes he breaks us to "level us up" or give you an "aha moment". My husband and I have had so many. To the point where you can't even ask if it's coincidence.
Our first God moment was before we even met! Imagine that! If you stay with me I promise it will make sense. July 2016, my 15 year old daughter Marissa was murdered when she was struck by a woman driving intoxicated on cocaine. Free will. A woman... exercised her free will that the Lord gives us and doesn't interfere with. She exercised her free will to run my daughter over July 7,2016. BUT... I REST ASSURED GOD EXERCISED HIS WILL AND MARISSA IS WAITING FOR ME IN HEAVEN. I DIDN'T GO TO WORK THAT NIGHT. I WORK OVERNIGHTS IN A GROUP HOME. GUESS WHO DID GO TO WORK JULY 7,2016? A NEW HIRE... who I will also realize 3 months later when I finally do get back to work is my FUTURE husband. He went to every court hearing. God doesn't interfere with free will but he used his will to take Marissa home. Jesus knows what we need. He knew my daughter was taken from me and it wasn't on God's timeline or mine for her to be heaven bound that day... He gave me a reason to remember to breathe again. He made me a mom again!
Now yesterday... skipping many many moments here because I dont want to get sidetracked... my husband is diabetic. We have our wins and losses just like everyone else with the diabetes. He developed bursitis. Also, all the wind knocked out our Internet. We sat around chatting for hours. A few days even. We know we love our spouses. But sometimes... these conversations come from nowhere between a husband and wife and you can feel yourselves "leveling up" together. The internet goes down or bad weather... if the Lord wants to get your attention... He will.
If you pray and fine tune your heart... you can hear him! Even when you don't hear him... you can feel him. It's really special even after years of marriage... when you don't think you can love them anymore and BOOM... another form of leveling up when you pray and talk and spend time with the Lord and your husband at the same time it's really special.
I felt compelled to share. God laid it on my heart and thank you for reading. I really hope this helps a mom or wife who gets frustrated and feels abandoned sometimes by God. When we feel off kilter... it's because we forget Jesus never closes his door. We do. And thank you God for always being there to remind me I don't even need a door! 🫶